In my life I have had a few moments where everything just feels as if it makes sense, even just for that split second I seem to experience a feeling of total understanding. In my life there where but a few of these moments getting my first car, my first kiss and the day I met her.
I always thought that these divine moments is what makes us think that life is worth living. This was until I lost her, in my mind the thought of being with out her was rhetorical. From the moment that my mind turned the stance of our relationship into serious, I convincingly told my self that I wold not be able to find meaning in life if I had to live without her.
As al relationships go, or most of them, I did not marry this girl and move into the dream house on the countryside. Fairytales is in my opinion a sick ideology that was created by people who live in a world that they create in order to escape reality. In other words I am saying that if you try and achieve fairytale status inside of your relationship you are trying to live out another persons dream.
I made a great new friend last night, Brenda, as we sat and waited for our movie we had an amazing conversation, we shared stories of life experience and heartbreak and success. This may sound a bit corny but in the middle of our conversation I realised something for the first time in my life. I have been trying to chase a Fairytale my whole life, this is why I have never been able to find happiness in my relationships.
The person in your life does not have to be great looking, they don't have to have a 5 star rated personality. The only real thing that matters in a relationship is that thru all the fights, bad habits and misunderstandings that person should be able to except you for who you are unconditionally.
From now on I am kicking the Fairytale in the face and going after the happiness that exists and that I know I deserve.
"Im Breaking out of this cage"
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